Be who you want to be!

Everytime I listen to people saying they can`t be good looking or wear something I just can`t belive it.

All my childhood and my early teen years I was the smart but ugly and fat girl. I can remember the classmates bulling me, the guys talking about who was the ugliest girl in the classroom and of couse I was part of the contest. Going to the PC lab was painful because they were mirrors everywhere... By far, it wasn`t the easiest time of my life. I didn`t have any self-steam and I was soooo self-conscious. At the same time, I wasn`t beautiful in the inside as I`m today. By that time, I didn`t belive in magic or kindness.

So then, what happened?

I don't really know what exactly made me want to change. It was a combination of different elements and situations. I was meeting new people, discovering new things, living in a different place, etc... But the most important one, I realized how beauty can come in different forms and styles. I started dreaming and Japanese street fashion took an important place in my life. It wasn't an easy or quick change because even know I am still working for being who I want to be. But without any doubt is worth it.

I'm not telling you to put loads of make up on, starve or wear fancy clothes because the biggest part of beauty comes from the inside. In my opinion, people brigth the most because of who we are on the inside and the outside is just there to complete.

Other important point is the "fake" part. Japanese styles usually can turn "fake" easily: wigs, circle lenses, lashes, nails, etc... Wearing these elements doesn't make you fake or wanna be. As long as you wear them to look in the way you feel. Let me explain my point, if you feel like a doll (an antique one or Barbie) and you want to look like one too, you are just being who you really are.

And remember don't ever be ashamed of who you are and don't ever limit yourself to what people expects from you.

Me 3 years ago

Me 3 weeks ago

Lifestyle

We have all heard about lolita & gyaru lifestyle. But how about decora and fairy kei ?

Most of the people into this kind of fashion don`t belive it exist and I fully respect their opinion. Despite that, I do consider myself as a lifestyle girl. I like to take sweet lolita & magical girl elements and I apply my own twist.

How do I define decora/fairy kei life style?

1) Making everyday`s life stuff fit your style. You can decorate your cellphone, headphones , Ipod, notebooks, boxes,places where you keep your accessories etc... Instead of using a tupperware you can buy a bento box, You can buy cute school supplies at china or korean town and of course sanrio magasin.

2) Having your own little colorful palace. Sometimes life can be stressful and so grey but if we arrive home and open the door to a cute castle everything seems better. Japanese rooms are usually very small but well decorated. You can choose a theme or just mix what you like. It doesn`t have to be all fashion related as long as you like it. I actually have 4 DBSK posters and even if they don`t fit, they make me smile. You don`t need a huge amount of money to have a beautiful room, 1$ store and thrifty places are such a good choice to find the items you need.
3) crafting, sewing, creating... Those help me to relax and explore my artistic side. You dont have to be talented or go on private classes to learn. I actually learn by my self and it`s pretty amazing to see how you improve everytime you make something new. You can create your own presonalized outfits and accessories!

4) Related TV shows or movies. Such as magical girl anime, vintage cartoons, disney movies even some cute dramas and asian movies (as kamikaze girls) would do. In the nigth I love to drink tea while watching one of those shows.
5) ATTITUDE!! This is the most important one. We are human beings and we have "bad" feelings such as anger, hate, sadness etc.. But if we can try to get over it and bring joy to the world by small acts of kindness we are already caring the spirit of those styles. How about baking for the people we know, helping the others at class, volunteering or just smiling and giving compliments? We all can do it!
I`m not saying this is the rigth way and we all should do this things. I just want to share my point of view and my lifestyle.

Valentine`s Day

Valentine`s day it`s acuatlly a "touchy" day for me. It was supposed to be my anniversary but now, well things changed.

But actually since the purpose of this day is to spread love I decided to stop being down and instead of that just celebrate.

I`m pretty new at baking but I enjoy it so I made heart shaped cookies and I decorated them.

I shared them with some of my classmates and they really liked them. It made me feel good.


Of course since I love to dress up in Pink white and red I had to make a V-day outift. Its pretty much old school decora.

And remember, even if you are single or taken the person you should love the most is YOURSELF because no one can love you as much as you can. We are all very lucky of having ourselves and we all have the power to be who we want to be.

Sometimes letting go is easier than keep holding.

Faceshoot from saturday

The last week-end my life changed. I became a single lady and even if it`s a hardtime the show has to keep going on.

So, I went to the china town (as usual) to discuss about a photoshoot ^3^ and to see Jiji.

I bougth eyelinder, a JYJ poster and food. I think my mother is starting to wonder if I`m obsessed about TVXQ but well!


The rest of the week was kind of special, wednesday the schoold had a failure of electricity and thursday I participated in a Japanese fashion show! (No pictures yet but they they`ll come)

By the way, the next week-end I`ll start volunteering at a cat shelter C:!